The Atonement - March 3, 2014

Dear Family and Friends,

I learned something about the Atonement this week that I wanted to share.

Our investigator that quit smoking, relapsed after 5 days. She was so ashamed, that she ignored our calls and didn't want to talk to us. We had no idea until we showed up at her house. She said about 10 words and then didn't want to talked to us anymore. Among those 10 words were, "I failed." Of course we assured her she didn't, but seeing her suffering was too much for me. I broke into tears as soon as we left. I sobbed, not because she relapsed, because I care about her so much that it's hard to see her suffer. She suffers from addiction when she's smoking and she suffers from terrible withdrawals when she's not. I was so sad for her. This experience made me realize 2 things: 

1. How Heavenly Father must feel watching us suffer. It's so hard. He just has to watch it. He so badly wants us to "Cast on Him our every Care," and pray so he can help us. I KNOW i can help Sherry. There's only so much I can do, but I know that through Heavenly Father, I can help her get through this. But I can't until she comes to me and asks. 

2. How Christ felt. I understand more now about why He died for us. If I could take this away from Sherry and go through all of it FOR her, so she didn't have to, I WOULD. In a heartbeat. Sometimes, we're so ashamed after we sin, that we do what Sherry did. Ignore the calls, hide our face. But Christ is right there with us, just waiting and begging for us to let him heal us. 

It was a very special experience that has made me want to turn to God and Jesus Christ more for EVERYTHING. I hope you all got something out of it as well. Love you all! Have a great week! :) 

Sista C.

P.S. This is my new haircut....chopped it off short.